Love for me was a 2 part process. Learning to love myself again and deciding on whether or not to continuing to love my recent partner of 5 years after SO much hurt. My 1st ever relationship back in 2015 was toxic I had no friends and no one to look up to or give me much needed advice. I was super skinny from not eating and stress. I ended up doing self harm going through so much. It was a really hard time and I turned callous. I shut off parts and lost bits of myself I struggled to get back. 2017 was the start of my 2nd serious relationship and this 1 was what it needed to be. A love that was really love. It was nurturing and helped me to grow into the woman I am. As time past I guess we lost our way. We weren’t seeing eye to eye, mixed with some disrespect and betrayal and I had to make the decision to leave.

When I moved I stopped getting my hair done, my nails all the pleasures of living in the city out the window. I had to embrace and learn to love me with no nails, no make up and natural hair. Sticking to my skin care routine, wash days and getting back into reading which I loved so much. I would sit out by the lake and just listen to music. With all of that, more peace, therapy and journaling I started to heal I started to get back to me. I also learned a lot of new things about myself, what I want in life and from a partner. More so I learned to communicate that effectively and I will never settle for anything less. You truly cannot expect someone else to love you if you do not love yourself.

I chose pink, white and the sparkle because love is not hard it’s people that make it that way. Love is kind, love is gentle it does not boast or envy. Pink and glitter has always make me feel these things. To me a true representation of love. I paired it with a bright metallic yellow gold because it is powerful and I wanted to emphasize is presence around us as it is laced throughout this piece. Love others but also love yourself.

~Heart’s Desire